Dear Cebu

Dear Cebu,

Due to unforeseen circumstances, I have to leave. It’s a sad decision but I have to. At first it was not easy to make this decision and it was not easy to transfer islands. I filled 3 huge boxes of my stuffs from here. Imagine! I almost had a life, or I had a life here. Oh, Cebu.

You were the reason I lived. My parents prayed to the Sto. Niño to have me. Every travel that we have we never fail to visit you.

Time came and I decided to study with you. University of San Carlos. I had a great time stressing out. It was hard and tiring, but it was worth it. I learned a lot.

Even though you’re sizzling hot, too hot for me, I did endure it as I try to finish my studies. I became an expert fanner (if there is such a word).

I made friends with your people and they were the best humans I’ve ever met. They were the friends that I’ll never forget.

You have fast cars. Really. Fast cars that would take my breath away as my life flashes before my eyes. So fast that they could beat African cheetahs.

Cebu, you were great.

Ok. My flight is being called. I’ll be home in a bit, and it’s for good. So, I guess I’ll see you around, Cebu?



Wall of Shame.

So, I saw this article about Kris Aquino, a female celebrity/socialite/whatever here in the Philippines, telling Andrew Garfield that her movie beat the first Spider Man movie here.

How fucked up is that?!

And, who the hell would tell another celebrity, ‘hey, y’know? I beat your movie in this country.’ That is a form of humiliating that person, and that is not ok.

What’s worst? Kris bragged about her ‘top-grossing movie’ to Andy, which isn’t really that.

Kris’ movie was entitled, ‘My Little Bossings’ which also starred her son, Bimby. Unfortunately my Ma pulled me to watch that movie because she wants to know how Bimby acts. I didn’t like the movie at all. The story line was faulty, the camera angles were messy, transitions are a pain in the head, the acting does not suit the actors. It felt like I was watching a movie made by 5-year olds. (But, then again, there are even stories made by 5-year olds that are better than that movie) 10 minutes into the movie I got bored and I wanted to leave the theater. No one seemed to enjoy the movie, as the theater was silent. It actually wasted 180 of my money. It was NOTHING compared to Spider Man. How it became top grossing? The hell I know.

Now, I’m wondering why the hell is she interviewing them? Where the hell are our top journalists? What happened was a huge shame. Some journalist/movie critic deserves that slot more than her.

Poor Andy. He’s there, expecting that people will talk about his upcoming movie and his upcoming projects or whatever and here comes a person, who is not really knowledgeable on how to handle interviews, brags about beating Andy’s movie with her dumb movie.

To Kris, please please please don’t do anything that you can’t do. I don’t even know how you got in the roster of interviewers. Some movie critic DESERVES that slot more than you, even if you did that as a birthday gift for your son. And, watch your mouth. You don’t hail yourself in front of a world-class actor. Not all things that you do are right. You are the president’s sister and you should behave so you would not ruin your family’s name.

Oh, the fucked up people in this beautiful country.

Why Are You My Bacon Strips

Writer’s Note: I actually wrote this in my journal last December 17, 2013 before Christmas break. I just found the opportunity to post this now.

Das me. Pre-show :)

Das me. Pre-show 🙂

It’s been, like, 4 days since I went to Manila for Zedd and Madeon. And it’s also been 4 days since we all are suffering post-concert depression. Until now we’re still thinking about it, talking about it, over the social network. It was one of my magical experience, my sweetest escape.

Ze Philippines' EDM crew :) (L-R) KrewellaPH, ZeddPH, MadeonPH, ZeddPH, and PRobinsonPH (Photo credit: @keralagresa)

Ze Philippines’ EDM crew 🙂
(L-R) KrewellaPH, ZeddPH, MadeonPH, ZeddPH, and PRobinsonPH
(Photo credit: @keralagresa)

People ask me how was it. I always answer them in two parts. And for this blog I’ll also have two parts in describing that night.

Zedd and Madeon

I was so stoked to see Zedd and Madeon. I mean, BEYOND stoked. When Madeon got out, oh my gosh, I can’t believe that the French Electronic Prince is just meters away from me. That black leather varsity jacket is just meters away from me. I went wild when he started his set with Technicolor. And I couldn’t believe it that he’s mixing and making music with his Launchpad and I’m seeing it with my own eyes – LIVE! I also went crazy when he did his Pop Culture. It was the greatest moment of my life, seeing Hugo do Pop Culture live, and listening while he’s doing it live is much better than just listening to it in YouTube or in your phone. He ended his set with Finale. Very apt. I went cray.

Madeon muchos guapo. :) (Photo credit: @keralagresa)

Madeon muchos guapo. 🙂
(Photo credit: @keralagresa)

For Zedd. Gosh. Magical. It was push-button mix but I felt ecstatic when he dropped his Legend of Zelda mix, my favorite song of his. He also played most of his songs, giving priority to his chart-topping songs Clarity, Spectrum, and Stay The Night. But I was kinda sad when he didn’t play Shave It Up.

Zedd ft. the Filipinos (Photo credit: Rukes)

Zedd ft. the Filipinos
(Photo credit: Rukes)

Overall, it was worth my money to be there. We also get to meet Gabe Damast, the guy behind those amazing visuals on Zedd’s set. Such an adorable guy. Before 2013 ended, he followed us who met him in Manila.

The People

Oh my gosh. To be frank the people (or crowd) bothers me. first we had a rift with the management because they didn’t grant the promised meet-and-greet (as discussed over Twitter direct message) for us admins of ZeddPH and MadeonPH. To be technical about it, we should have been there because we were the ones who endorsed the concert since day one, and we know much more about Zedd and Madeon than the other people in the venue. (Well, except for those who follow those accounts) We know all their songs, their signature sound, and their music labels. Even their tour managers. We stayed for long in the venue but we didn’t get to meet any of the 2 guys. Except for Gabe.

Gabe's curls get the girls :) (Photo credit: Art Oca of Hyve)

Gabe’s curls get the girls 🙂
(Photo credit: Art Oca of Hyve)

The crowd made me confused. For real. When we were walking to the venue we were expecting everyone’s in their rave outfit. But when we got there, we looked like first world homeless people compared to majority of the people there. Everyone were wearing long gowns, high heels, suit and tie and shits like that. I was so ready with my flower crown and these people are wearing formal outfits?! Moment of Clarity ought to be a rave, not a wedding or a debut.

Now, during Madeon’s set, it was so quiet. No one knew Madeon’s songs aside from us and our followers. Total bullshit. They only cheered for Daft Punk’s Aerodynamic, which is part of Madeon’s Pop Culture. I’m so sad that they did not see the beauty of Hugo’s Pop Culture. See my tears.

On Zedd’s set, holy shit, I was expecting a lot of people jumping around whenever the beat drops but what happened was only a number of people jumped. WTF? The crowd wasn’t as energetic as I expected. And there were more down time from the crowd. They only went wild on 4 songs – Clarity, Stay The Night, Spectrum, and Empire of the Sun’s Alive.

Days after, I saw the photos from Rukes and the Hyve’s Art Oca and I noticed that people on most of the set time were just taking videos or pics of the stage. I guess they were just there to show it in their Instagrams or on Facebook. But we were there for the music. I don’t actually know how to feel.


I’ll just forget about the latter part, even though we hardcore EDM fans are all disappointed about the meet and greets. Overall it was an exciting experience for me. Flying to another city without any parent’s consent and skipping a day of class. I might do this again next time.

I SPY! Look for a girl who has a flower crown on that crowd! (Clue: See that Dad on the right? I'm on the left side of that Dad) :) (Photo credit: Rukes)

I SPY! Look for a girl who has a flower crown on that crowd! (Clue: See that Dad on the right? I’m on the left side of that Dad) 🙂
(Photo credit: Rukes)

Days later, I checked my Twitter at the middle of the night and my Interactions went crazy. Checked it and it was the EDM crew, telling me that Rukes actually got a pic of me raising my sign. I was flabbergasted. I couldn’t believe it. I had the honor to be part of Rukes’ great DJ photography gallery. (Even though my face isn’t there but at least a part of me was there)

Not that Zedd is that shit on an underwear, but Zedd is as hot and tasty as a bacon. Nomnom. OMG (Photo credit: Rukes)

Not that Zedd is that shit on an underwear, but Zedd is as hot and tasty as a bacon. Nomnom. OMG
(Photo credit: Rukes)

My Filipino Assignment

Ok. This is my Filipino Assignment and I have to encircle the sentences that has some ‘tayutay’s in it. But before anything else, I want to share this funny assignment that I have.

We’ve been friends for a long time ago. We come from the same alma mother. Actually, our paths crossed one time on another. But it’s only now that I gave him a second look. I realized that beauty is in the eyes. The pulp bits of my heart went fast, really fast. Cute pala siya. And then, he came over with me. He said, “I hope you don’t mine. Can I get your number?” Nag-worry ako. What if he doesn’t give it back? He explained naman na it’s so we could keep intact daw. Sabi ko, “Connect me if I’m wrong, but are you asking me ouch?”

“The?!”….ang sarcastic na sagot niya.

Aba! The verb! Parang siya pa ang nagalit! Persona ingrata! Ang kapal niya!

I cried buckles of tears. Na-guilty yata siya. Sabi niya, “Isipin mo nalang na this is a blessing in the sky.”

Irregardless daw of his feelings, we should go ouch na rin. Now, we’re so in love. Mute and epidemic na ang past. Thanks God we swallowed our fried. Kasi, I’m 33 na and I’m running our time.

After two weeks, he plopped the question. “Will you marriage me?”

I’m in a state of shocked! Kasi mantakin mo, when it rains, it’s four! This is true good to be true. So siyempre, I said “Yes.”

Love is so many splendor. Pero hung inaayos ko na ang aming kasal, everything swell to pieces. Nagdi-dinner kami noon nang biglang sa harap ng aming table, may babaeng humorist ng, “Well, well, well. Look do we have here.” What the fuss! The nerd ng babaeng yon!

She said they were still on. So I told her, “Whatever is that, cut me some slacks!” I didn’t want this to get our hand kaya I had to sip it in the bud. She accused me of steeling her boyfriend. As is!!! I don’t want to portrait the role of the other woman. “Gosh, tell me to the marines!” I told her. “Please, mine your own business!” Who would believe her anyway?

Dahil it’s not my problem anymore but her problem anymore, tumigil na rin siya sa panggugulo. Everything is coming up daisies. I’m so happy. Even my boyfriend said liketwice. He’s so supportive. Sabi niya, “Look at is this way. She’s out our lives.”

Kaya, advice ko sa inyo, take the risk. You can never tell. Just burn the bridge when you get there.

Course of Life

Curriculum Vitae (noun) – a brief account of a person’s education, qualifications, and previous experience, typically sent with a job application.

Now that I’m in one of the serious years in college, second year, our track adviser keeps on telling us to work on our curriculum vitae. She also told us to make blogs and define our spot in the cyber world. This makes me think. What have I’ve been doing in the cyberspace? In this light, I am willing to assess my accounts.

For the record I have 9 active accounts in different sites. I have my Facebook, as everyone has one, Twitter, this WordPress account, MySpace, SoundCloud, and Formspring, Polyvore, and Tumblr. I will describe each of my accounts.


  • This is the only account where I am so clean. Why? Because of my teachers and my parents and other relatives.
  • You can say that I am fake, but I can’t just go loose myself in this site or else I’ll be bashed.
  • I don’t really stay for a long time in this site. I just log in and check what’s up and close the tab.
  • I talk about music and fashion and creative writing here.


  • Aha. Twitter. The place where I can do virtually anything.
  • My relatives follow me there but I think they don’t care about the things I say in there.
  • The most vulgar site I ever have. (Not really)
  • The real me is here.
  • I mostly talk about music: listening or making music.
  • I also talk about fashion.
  • I am apolitical sometimes.
  • Employers won’t see this appear in Google when they’ll look up for ‘Natasha Carpina’


  • My online journal.
  • I talk about the things that happen to me. Mostly not related to school.
  • A place where I express my half-hearted regret on choosing my college path.
  • I talk about music, and how I badly want to be in it.


  • We all know what’s in MySpace: music. So, basically I post my covers here.


  • A producer once said ‘If you want producers to see you, post your songs in SoundCloud.’ (Holla to Zedd), so this is the place where my musical goddess plays.
  • My secret sanctuary.
  • A place where I express myself musically. and Formspring

  • These are example of sites where people submit questions for you to answer.
  • It’s like my Twitter account, I just answer stuffs.


  • A site where I integrate fashion and music.
  • Also one of my secret sanctuaries.


  • My dreams in photos.
  • It is like Twitter and WordPress and Photobucket combined.
  • Mostly music and fashion.
  • You wouldn’t see this appear under ‘Natasha Carpina’

Now I feel a little lost. My curriculum vitae consists of things related to fashion and music. What do you think my future employers who are in the field of foreign affairs will think of me?

This leaves me a question: Am I really born to be in the IRFS arena?