Why did I say that? I think I said too much. Did I blow my chance? I hope not. I hope I was vague enough to reserve some parts but obvious enough for her to feel that she was the one I was talking about. I gave away too much, now you might be thinking it’s a completely different person.
Girl, let me tell you this. I might risk our connection. This might look like a stupid attempt to go back to how it used to be. To go back to that time when we were still innocent, unaware of how each of us feels and thinks. To go back to the time when I could feel genuinely happy when I receive a notification from you.
I take back what I said about me risking nothing. I realized, in this careless action, I’m risking a lot: my chance, our connection, and, most importantly, you. I placed myself on the line, along with those three. But you believe in me, even told me I was brave, brave enough to talk and write about my thoughts and feelings. Mind you, I just realized this boldness takes a toll on me.
This is stupid, but a brave, attempt to take back our innocence. But aside from that, let me tell you this: it is you all along. This happiness was because of you, and I thank you, thank you so much for bringing light back into my life. I feel like I owe much to you.
Cliche as this may sound, but you made my heart beat again. Yes, it sounds corny/cheesy, but it’s the truth. I feel that I could love again.
I don’t know where this goes. I don’t know when this would last. If you’re reading this, for I fear that you are actually reading, I hope this might not change how you treat me, because, although I feel this way for you, I am still the same old kid you first knew. I hope things will still be the same for us, or even better. I hope you’ll still ask me out and enjoy each other’s company, because your presence makes me happy, too. I hope you feel the same way too.
Sometimes I wish I would know less so I could feel less. But, as usual, things happen for a reason. If that is so, then there must be a good reason as to why our paths crossed, and why I feel this way. I hope there’s a good reason behind all these.